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~*~ash~*~          *love love love you*

...i miss it!!!!

hello lovers

      ...wow its been like forever since i last updated lol!!! well alot has been goin on!!! i have cheer pracitce every monday tuesday thursday and i have games on fridays lol and compation is also about to start up soo thats just goin to make me more busy lol!!! and also school has started and i love my classes lol..cus i have some really kool ppl in them but the only thing is that the classes their selfs are goin to be hard soo idk i gess we will see how it goes but it should be a really good year for me!!!!   and me a chad are doing wonderful..it just sucks cus we dont get to hangout every day like we used to but its ok cus we try to see eachother as much as we can during the week and weekends lol!!!       ...ok soo last weekend was soo much fun lol cus friday chad n mitch came over then they took me to the football game cus i had to be there a hr early and soo that was kool n the game was fun...exsept for a lil arument that me and some1 had at half time but oo well cus im w/ who i wanta be w/ knw and i dont really care what he thinks about it.. and also we lost lol!!! soo then after the game chad picked me up and we just got somethin to eat then came back to my house!!!   saturday was awesome lol..chad came over and then we went to jordans party and omg it was soo much fun and like every1 was there lol!!!! and soo ya it was one of the funnest weekends lol!!! then chad just brought me home at like 1145 cus we got stuck in traffic lol!!!    sunday i went to cool springs w/ chad and his bro to get some more clothes lol cus i really needed some jeans!!! soo ya knw that was fun!!! then he came over that night and we just hungout at my house!!!         ...soo thats about all that happend last weekend and this week has been fun eventhough i miss summer soo fin much lol!!! and lastnight we had a game in lincon county and its like a hr and 30mins away soo that sucked but it was still fun and i got home at like 1230 lol and also i got to see my love before we left lol!!!!  and now im about to get in the shower then hopefully hangin out w/ my baby tonight lol!!!!

*NEXT SATURDAY IS MINE AND CHADS BIG ONE MONTH LOL*

~*~ASH~*~                        *~*THINX SOO FIN MUCH FOR THE WONDERFUL COMMENTS YALL ARE AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL BUT KEEP THEM UP LOL*~*                   *love ya bunches*

&&the best kind of boyfriend
is the kind that loves you
for the person you are

*i have the bestest freinds in the world and yall knw who yall are and im soo happy that i have yall as freinds and i would do nething for you just like you would do nething for me and thinx soo much for bein there for me when ever i need some1..i love yall soo fin much*

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..hmm..hehe chelsie that's for u lol!!

...imma miss summer soo much!!!

hello lovers

              *<3*As of 8-6-05 i am currently takein by the most amazing guy ever lol*<3*

...well its been a really long time since i have updated lol!!! but ive been really busy!!!!  well the past week has been really but lol..basicly ive been either cheering/ hanging out with the girls/ or hangin out w/ chad lol and have been out like every night lol!!!   this weekend was realy fun!!! thursday- i went over to ces house w/ some ppl and we all hungout and that was fun lol..gosh good times lol!!! friday- i went to see ducks of hasserd(s/p) w/ chad and some ppl..then just hungout!!! saturday- i had a cheer clinic till 3 then chad came over and we went to the ranch lol then came back to my house to eat dinner(the rice was good lol) then we went to sonic came back to my house then on the way to picked up some of his friends HE ASKED ME OUT!!!!!! lol soo ya that was the highlight of like the whole freackin week lol!!!! then we picked up his friends and went to sonic then to his house then came back to mine lol!!!! soo i got home at like 1130 lol!!! sunday- i me and cec went to hurricans and that was pimp lol..then we meet up w/ some other ppl after that and went to hotters lol!!! then i got home and talked on the phone then went to bed at like 230..then i was woken up at like 300 in the fin morning by my lovely big sister amber lol..cus i got rushed for adk lol!!! soo we did that then went to a breakfast at like 6 then i came home and went to sleep till like 1230/1 then later on chad came over and we went to hobby lobby then walmart for my mom lol then i had practice and after that me cec amber jordan ashley britt and rose went to subway then to samped for the adk dance lol and it was soo much fun lol!!! soo then we left there and amber took me home and i was supposed to go stay at ces tonight but my mom was being gay and i have to fin babysit in the morning soo that sucks but oo well!!!!                         well i gess thats it for now but if u need nething or wanta hangout sometime then call me and ill see what i can do!!!!                         *Only a few more days of summer..make it count*

~*~ASH~*~                     *~*THINX SOOO MUCH FOR THE WONDERFUL COMMENTS..YALL ARE AMAZING LOL BUT KEEP THEM UP LOL*~*                            *love you*

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..yum!

~xo im out xo~

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                    *ME AND MY LOVE*

..hmm imma miss it!!

hello lover

...well its been a while since i updated last lol!!! but im just goin to start off from last weekend lol!!        friday- i just hung around the house and stuff then later on that night shane justin and candice came and picked me up and shane took me and candice to see zach and casey lol!!! and that was kool cus i havent seen zach in like for ever lol!! then after that me candice shane and justin went to get somethin to eat n drove around!!!        saturday- i hungout w/ natash then later on ryan came and picked me up and we went to chick-fil-a and then walked around the mall and saw some ppl lol!! soo that was fun i gess!!!         sunday- well i didnt really do nething until shane picked me up and we went to candice house soo i could get ready and me him candice and justin hungout like all night lol and saw some ppl and stuff lol!! soo ya you knw we had soooo much fun..until something happend that wasnt kool lol but its good now cus me and candice stayed up to talk things out w/ shane and justin lol!!! and i also ended up meeting someone(chad) soo that made the night even better lol!!! and then i just stayed the night at candices lol!!          monday- we had to wake up at 830 in the freackin morning to go to cheer practice soo that sucked soo bad lol!! then i came home and sleeped lol!! and i didnt really do nething but hungout w/ natash n went to see her mom in the hostpital then just drove around and then ended up pickin kc up and we all went to eat lol soo that was kool then i came home and talked on here and on the phone w/ some ppl..and i didnt get nesleep cus i was on the phone w/ some1(chad) till 2am lol!!!         tuesday- i had cheer practice again soo that sucked then i got home and natash picked me up and we went to the mall then meet up w/ ellen and mcdonalds lol!! then chad called me and then shows up:) lol soo we all just sat there and talked for like 2hrs lol soo that was really fun!!!then i came home and had to go to permire w/ candice lol!!! then shane took me home and then later on that night shane candice and justin come back to pick me up and we just drove around and went to random places lol soo that was awesome(even though shane and candice drove out of the parking lot and left me and justin w/ carl and matt lol)..good time lol!!!then they took me home and i like stayed on the phone and talked to some1 about somethings for a while..even though it didnt seem to help nething :(!!!         wendsday(today)- i had to get up for cheer practice agian and then i came home and i was soo tierd soo i went back to sleep lol!! then i woke up and talked on here for a lil bit!!! and i was haveing a good day until me and some1 got in this fight that i still dont knw what its about..all i knw is me and him need to talk about alot of crap and get all this figured out cus we went threw to much together to end up like this..even if we arent together!!  but ya soo then chad came and picked me up and we hungout and went to see wending crashers..and omg its soo funny lol we laught threw like the whole thing lol!! so ya we had a wonderful time together tonight lol!!!                                                        ...well i gess thats about it for now and ill update later after the weekend lol!!!                  plans for the weekend- friday im goin to the races w/ cec and hangout w/ some other ppl like claire jeremy and clint soo thatll be pimp!!! saturday im supposed to go to the bhs football car wash from 11-12 but ya soo if you wanta hangout after that then call me lol!!! sunday im possibly going to hurricans w/ cec and the girls and then who knws lol!!!             but if you wanta hangout ne then call me!!!

~*~ASH~*~                    *~*THINX SOO MUCH FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL COMMETNS..YALL ARE THE BEST BUT KEEP THEM UP LOL*~*

*ry- i have no clue y you are soo mad at me!! the fight that i gess we are still in is stupid..theres no point in it and i dont see what the problem was that started it!! im sry that i already had plans tonight cus i really wanted to see you but could only get to see you for like 10mins neways cus u had plans also!! i dont mean to sound like a bitch or nething but u knw i care about you and want to hangout you no matter what but..ur not the only one w/ the life!! i have one too and idk what it is you want me to do cus im not just goin to stay at home and wait for you to have time for me.. i want you in my life and i thought u wanted me in yours but u just need to knw that being in my life doesnt just mean a phone call everynight or hangin out w/ me just when u have time and exspecting me to be avalible!! im sry if you think i blew u off or w/e but you already had plans and soo did i and im sry but i didnt see the reason for me to breack mine just to see you for like 10mins!!! well i really think we have alot to talk about and i do miss you its just that im sry if im meeting new ppl but i thought thats what you wantd me to do and im sry that i meet him but oo well!! well i gess ill try to talk to you tonight..if you want to!!!         *love you..and i still care*

*</3*Sometimes you have to let go of someone.
To see if there's anything there to hold onto*</3*

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~xo im out xo~

...hmm i miss it soo much!!!

hello lover

       ...well its been like forever since i updated soo i gess i will now lol!! since my last entry i went to cheer camp and that was fun/crazy/dramtic/and tiering all in one lol but i loved my room mates..lauren cec and blaire..they were amazing lol!!! well i got back last wendsday and that was a very long ride home lol..but it was worth it cus when i got back ryan came over and we got to hangout for a lil bit and that was fun even though we both didnt get ready and werent looking our best lol!!      thursday i didnt really do nething but lay around the house and unpack and relax lol and blaire came over n that was fun!!!      friday i went to the mall w/ blarie and hung out mostly w/ jordan and spencer and i got to see ryan for a lil bit lol and then someother kool kids lol!!! later that night me and blaire went back to her house and lindi lauren megan aj kyle tyler micheal brian jt and some other ppl came over!! then they dudes left and the girls stayed that night and so u knw that was fun!!!     saturday i came home and then ryan picked me up and we went to eat then drove around and went to go see his friends box and omg that was great lol!!!      sunday i went over to cec house and me her claire and jen all meet up w/ some ppl and went to hurricans and omg that was soooo fin fun lol and i saw alota ppl there lol(includeing both nicks lol)!!! then we all went to hooters w/ aj spencer james and trent soo that fun then nikki and some other girls showed up and so that was even more great lol until we almost got kicked out lol!!! then me cec claire and jen left and the ride home was crazy lol!!! all imma say is we meet soo many ppl on the enterstate($3 lol)..gosh it was fun!!! then when we finnaly got to cecs and like 20 guys were already there waitin on us lol..but it was fun cus it was all the guys we hungout w/ that night and brian micheal and jake!! then they all left and brian micheal jake and peanut stayed soo that fun lol(claire and cec u knw what i mean lol)!!!!      monday we all woke up and me cec and claire hung out and then l8er that night clint and jeremy came over and soo that was kool until claire had to go(tear)...soo then me jeremy cec and clint watched choach cater and sat on the roof lol..cus it was really preaty outside lol!!!      today(tuesday) i came home and didnt really do nething..until me and some1 got into it bout the stupidest thing in the world but we wont get into that then i had to go to permire lol!!!   and soo now im here bord lol!!!!                         ...well i gess imma go getta shower and lay down cus as u can tell i havent got ne sleep lol!!!!

~*~ASH~*~                             *~*THINX FOR ALL THE AMAZING COMMENTS..YALL ARE THE BEST BUT KEEP THEM UP LOL*~*                               **LOVE YALL SOOOOO MUCH**

*</3*i wish we could go back to that night
where everything felt so right*</3*

*to all the amazing kids and my girls that i hungout w/ and meet these past few nights yall are awesome!!! i love yall soo much and im glad we hungout!!! i dont knw what i would have done w/ out yall!!! think soo much for everything!!!  love yall!!!

&& she sat .
she sat for hours,
wondering what she had done.
to deserve any of this pain
that she was feeling.
wondering what she had did
to make him go away
wondering what she had did
to want to make him
break her heart in two
&& as she started to cry, she began asking herself

*ryan im sry bout everything..i was just tryin to have fun and idk its all just a big mess!!! i really didnt think u would have cared and im sry that this happend but theres nothin that i can change bout it and i hope that we can get threw it and everything will be like it was!! well i cant wait to hang out w/ u again cus i think we really need to talk bout alota crap!!! well ill talk to ya l8er tonight....i <333 you*

*A part of me wants to erase you from my past
but another part of me still wants you in my future*

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*i smile and make you think i'm happy
i talk and make you think i love me
i laugh so you don`t see me cry
i look at you & hide the [PAiN] inside
i feel myself dying but you see me survive*

~xo im out xo~